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Much like my good friend Lesley I am a huge book whore. The insanity just doenst stop. My friend Dawn came over recently to show me how to work this money management excel spreadsheet. And yeah....we figured out that a good majority of my money after rent and bills goes to CD's and books. Im absolutely okay with the fact that when it comes to this...Im about as hopeless as a penny with a hole in it!So Im finishing up my overnight audit at the hotel and I come across a web-ad for blackexpressions.com bookclub. I usta have an account with them a couple years ago. But then I inadvertedly stuck them for they papers and left them high and dry on a bill. My SSN wasnt/isnt attached so I wasnt/aint as concerned. LOL. Anyways maybe it was my late night delirium...but I couldnt resist signing up again. Much like the hustle I continue to run on Columbia House and BMG Music....having 3 names (Anthony, Tony, TJ) comes in handy if you know what I mean. *Dont none of yall work for any of the above mentioned companies, right?*
...I swear the Mexican dudes that work in the kitchen of the hotel are plotting on my ass! We just got new lockers with company issued padlocks (I know, right!) and apparently I have a real stubborn one b/c I have to do the combination like fifty-leven times before the bitch will open. Anyways so yesterday Im pretty sure one of the Mexican dudes was peering over my shoulder trying to peep my shit. I aint Rockwell nigga! I know somebody's watching me. AND THEN....they start speaking in spanish around me? What am I supposed to think? I wonder what they are planning to do. Steal my shoes out my locker? My work clothes? I mean WTF!And then there is a group of about 10-12 Germans staying here right now. Apparentely these fuckers do not believe in personal space. Everytime they come back in the hotel they all hover around the front desk asking for their room keys. Can I get a single file line out you bastards? I do not need nor appreciate yall crowding the front desk to the point that I cant see illumination anywhere. Im claustrophobic fuckers! Like aint yall asses ever heard of the 3 feet rule? Dame espaciao nigga damn!!!....but again I swear I aint a racist.
So I'd like to thank my 'psychologist' StacyP....I'd like to thank Lori for holding in on the hug for that much longer and kissing my forehead (how sweet!).....I'd like to thank C for inspiring the title of this here blog.....AND I'd like to extend a very special thanks to KK for her special guest apperance. How unexpected, yet totally welcomed. I blushed....Im sure of that. I'm cool Poop.Really I am.....I was just emptying out all the thoughts swirling around in my big ass head. Venting is what they call it I do believe. And I know it goes against my usual upbeat personality, but it's what makes me a whole person, ya know?I closed off the comments to that one. I said what I had to say and I've moved on......
1. As the title says there is a lot on my mind2. I feel like Im in a rut3. Shit doesnt really seem to be flowing and/or feeling right4. This up coming excursion to Cali is much needed5. My Granny had a mild heart attack last Sunday6. She is a G though7. Drove herself to the hospital!!!!!!8. When my brother got the call we didnt know what to expect9. The car ride was real quiet10. No radio, no nothing11. But then my mom called from the hospital room and updated us12. That relieved me to know she was okay.13. Dude I was picturing her unconcious w/ tubes and shit everywhere14. Then my mom put her on the phone15. She started making jokes about swimming lessons in Miami16. That made me feel better17. Cant spell Granny w/o the G!!!18. Did I mention that Im feeling maaaaad rut-ish19. Back on some 'Fuck the world, dont ask me for shit' shit?20. Yeah Lor...Im back on that again.21. I fucking hate that stupid white people think the term 'BLING BLING' is cool22. Note to said stupid white people : No one hardly says that shit but yall dumb asses!23. I think my cousin is acting crazy again in Minnesota24. My Granny told me to call and find out whats going on.25. I told her I would but I havent just yet26. Im building up my energy27. I wrote a rap when I was like 14 that had a line like "A smile on my shell/but it's confusion that is within me"28. 27 = Still true29. Remember last list when I said I felt like I was fooling the world?30. Yeah I am31. Pretty fucking good too if I may add32. It's too easy to make/have kids33. And then the kids have to suffer b/c the damn parents aint grown or stable or capable of raising no damn kids34. There are exceptions though.....Toi, Crystal, Lesley, Clo, Reese, Keeta, etc.35. Thankfully I couldnt think of any 'bad' mamas off hand36. But shit....Im trying to think of dudes I know with kids37. Still drawing a blank38. Oh yeah.....my cousins!39. My mama once told me that I have always been girl crazy40. I suppose she is correct....41. ....but she told me in front of KK42. Who does that?43. Doesnt everyone just want someone to want them?44. Isnt that like a basic need that everyone has?45. Ever felt like that need aint being met?46. I didnt mean for this list to take a such a melancholy tone47. Im just typing away though48. It usually takes me a couple days to do a list49. This shit is getting done in less than 20 mins50. Heaven I need a hug51. LOL!52. Im bugging53. On my myspace page someone said something about me being positive all the time54. I have this crazy faith55. Like I can oooze positivity and all....56. ....but sometimes Im not sure if I believe myself57. I guess I just speak the shit into existence58. Erykah Badu calls it 'Faking It Til You Make It'59. " On another note/bout to take another vaca/on another boat...."60. That was Jay Z61. Sorry Stace62. Im looking forward to hanging with the LJ girls63. Gentle Spirit...where are you?64. Im gonna re-read my equinox card65. "Heaven is here. Choose Life. Choose Love"66. Aint that what it said?67. "Im goin goin back back to Cali Cali"68. Somedays I really miss KK69. As I would hope she has her days that she really misses me too70. I go back and forth with wearing my heart on my sleeve71. All in all I just try to do what feels right72. My show is on hiatus as we disagree amongst ourselves73. I do not like being idle74. Anyone know I wanna be married?75. And soon!!76. I dont like singlehood77. Relationships are hard78. But what have you ever come across that was worth having AND easy?79. Exactly80. You ever felt like the world aint checking for ya?81. I do every now and then82. "Who really cares?/When I talk?/What I feel?/What I say?/Nobody not really/Who wants to take the time to understand/I would like someone to heal me with some empathy/But I can't find…Nobody not really/Maybe I'm invisible to the world/Does anyone in the world even think of me?/As more than just a hopeless cause/Maybe the world is not my block/My stoop/My life/My dreams/My anything...."83. DeeDee...you asked what I was thinking when I posted the lyrics to 'YeYo' a couple of months ago?84. Well now ya know babycakes85. My ol Melancholy Mannie ass!86. I'll probably have snapped outta this by time anyone will have read this.87. I need to make a list of simple shit that I do that make me happy88. And keep it for days like this89. Im gonna pop in my 'Heard A Word/Spirit Food' CD90. It always helps91. Okay I think Im done.....
So today....Oct. 22, 2005...a mere 27 years, 11 months, and some odd days after it was decided that I should bless the earth with my presence (*smile*)....I was given a sure sign of my impending Grown up-dom.Today my good people.....I went into my closet and pulled out my scarf, gloves and hat...that I bought LAST YEAR. Yup...they were in my big ol winter coat where I put them at the break of spring. That's it! That was my sign. May not be big to you, but this isnt about you anyways, now is it?Yall have noooooo earthly idea of how many times I've had to buy the same winter accessories over and over and over b/c I lose them after winter is over. But not this year! Nope! The Teejster is a grown ass man dog!Watchouttherenow!!!! (Said in true grown man fashion)
1. “Sometimes I think I’m from another world / when I’m trying to tell a woman just exactly where I stand at / I want a girl when I want a girl / and when I don’t want a girl…I want a girl that understands that! / And that’s some hard shit to explain…” – Phonte of Little Brother “Slow It Down”
2. Yaaay Im blogging again!
3. Keep your poking sticks away Clo *wink* *smile*
4. Sometimes I think I’m just fooling the world
5. Really I do
6. I’m totally shameless about my affinity for ‘Desperate Housewives’
7. Ask me if I give a shit who says what about it
8. Remember when we couldn’t wait to be adults?
9. Why didn’t those sadistic ass elders of ours tell us that it would be like this?
10. Do they still make Jolly Rancher sticks?
11. I don’t say I’m moody to be cute
12. I REALLY AM MOODY!
13. …yet still very lovable if I may say so *smile*14. We are gonna turn Nap-town upside down and then round and round
15. And then I get blueberry pancakes the following morning?
16. Hell to the yizeah!!!
17. “Lillian….MAY NOT use the phone! Lillian MAY NOT go outside!”
18. Who knows where that one is from?
19. My youngest brother is in jail….again!……….
20. ….“Recognize the thresholds of negative stress”
21. I like forcing Janity to listen to lyrics and not just the damn beats!
22. Only she notices the damn echoing sounds of the background overdubs!
23. Teej will you go ahead and finish the damn bell hooks book already!
24. You’ve only been ‘reading’ it since April!!!
25. “Stay tuned…there’s more to see / Through all the technical difficulties / We just might go and take a break / but yall know we’ll be back next week….” – Alicia Keys “Unbreakable”
26. Definitely my favorite song of the moment
27. “Your life is up to you. Life provides the canvas; you do the painting. Take charge of your life…or someone else will.” - From the book "If Life is a Game, These are the Rules" by Cherie Carter-Scott
28. Remember when calling someone an ‘African Bootyscratcher’ was the quickest way ever to start a fight?
29. Yall do realize that it was only black people saying this shit amongst ourselves, right?
30. Do yall also realize that that is a direct reflection of our ignorance/lack of knowledge of our homeland?
32. And that aint shit but the wack ass public school system not telling us redeeming shit about Africa!
33. “Don’t touch me on my left side! Uhhh! Don’t touch me on my right side! Uhhh! Don’t fuck me up! Don’t fuck me up! Don’t fuck me up!”
34. That shit is HE-LARRY-US!!!
35. Thank you for sharing that with me!
36. Such an instant smile inducer
37. Kinda like you!
38. I feel my ‘grown man’ taking over more and more everyday
39. I am actually concerned about my credit
40. I plan on fixing it….soon…like now soon!
41. I’m concerned about my health
42. I’m fregging growing up right before my own eyes
43. But I still like candy….
44. …and cartoons and cereal….
45. …and wearing t-shirts, jeans and gym shoes
46. But it’s all about balancing
47. Life = Balancing act
48. I bought the DVD of ‘Get Christy Love’ for $2 outta Walgreens
49. Anyone else up on that besides me?50. “This is my uncle’s house!…..How the fuck do you steal a house?”
Well not really. I dunno my good people. Im fully aware that I havent been blogging like I used to. I dont wanna say I aint feeling it b/c that aint the case. I just havent been blogging and I havent been reading all my peoples blogs either. I am just not finding enough hours in the day as of late. And Im still only getting like 4-6 hours of sleep per night. I'm sure I'll get back into the swing of things soon. And it isnt like the whole world is sitting on pins and needles awaiting Teej's newest blog entry..I've just heard from a few peeps that I need to get it going.
So no DeeDee.....I aint lost. You dont have to come and get me. LOL.
And okay Clo...here's a small lil something to hold you over along with the Psychology Today. No need to poke me with sticks.
And Echo....I know I have a challenge to accept. Im on it. Soon.
Yeah!......Happy "How the fuck you gon 'discover' some land that people were already inhabiting when your punk ass rolled up on the Santa Maria or whatever the fuck it was in 1492 but b/c you are a white man you will go down in history as discovering this previously occupied land....but even then you knew about white privilege, right?" Columbus Day!
"Im so tore/look like my eyes been stitched together with stitches..."- E40 "Hurricane""To the man up above to whom the thanks Im giving/I'll never drink again if you just let me keep living" - DJ Quik "Tonight"And so you can tell what this blog is about already, right? Last night I had to go to a CD release party that I really didnt wanna attend but had to for political purposes. But oh well my hand was kinda forced so I convinced my boy Leo to roll along since Im there on my tv show's behalf and dammit it's his show too!So 2 things.....1. I heard the party advertised on the radio. Thats a big no-no. Maybe Im spoiled or old or even a bit stuck up, but I dont do events advertised on the radio. That's just the potential for too many people. And 2. Dammit I opened up a tab! Why do I do this? Didnt I learn my lesson in Florida? And while I didnt clear $100 on my tab I came pretty fucking close. And the sad thing is I bought Leo like 2 drinks, my homegirl who I saw there got 1, this chick I was dancing with got 1, and well....the rest went to me.Needless to say I ended the night at the gas station at like 3am cleaning my own throw up off the side of Leo's car with one of those window swegie things!!!! LOL. Im such a compulsive obsessive ass. Why on earth do I do these things?
1. “It’s natural to fall off / just land close to the tree / I’ll be there if they need me to be……” – Pos of De La Soul “Trying People”
2. Somehow Im on my school’s alumni list but I didn’t graduate
3. ….yet! *wink*
4. Not having a middle name sucks
5. I have no earthly idea as to how to turn my cell phone off
6. I got it over a month ago and it hasn’t been off since the lady in the store turned it on
7. When I don’t want it to ring I just put the ring to ‘silent’.
8. My ol supposedly tech-savvy ass cant turn my phone off!
9. How absurd!!!
10. Does anyone know how the hell Keith Sweat managed to maintain a successful singing career for x amount of years w/o being able to actually sing?
11. 2 weeks in the beginning of September has now turned into November 1st
12. He’s my brother so I don’t mind
13. But I’ll be damned if the nigga cant eat!
14. Shouldn’t stupid people just have their own damn country/colony/space/place to ruin?
15. There aren’t many peeps who I woulda missed half of “Everybody Hates Chris” for
16. But she is her so she gets a pass
17. Besides……I got ringtones bitch!!!!
18. *Big cheese*
19. I apparently needed a blogging break
20. What’s funny is I was just talking to Echo about breaking from blogging
21. And I ended up doing it before she did!
22. Being a concierge flippin rox!
23. In my first week alone I got like 6 invites to different shit
24. Different free shit mind you
25. Different free shit WITH free food and drinks!
26. Yeah….exactly!
27. My 10 yr class reunion was this past weekend
28. I wasn’t as excited about it as I originally though I would be
29. Otherwise I woulda been more angry about missing all but 15 mins of it in a Leona’s (Restaurant) parking lot
30. Besides I think it coulda been organized a tad better
32. Les’ card was soooooo sweet
33. A million thanx to you Gentle Soul
34. Dude who the fuck is playing some techno shit that loud on a Sunday afternoon?
35. “…came to me to see if I can give ‘em guidance for change / Shit yall I need guidance myself!” – Pos of De La Soul “Trying People”
36. I can not stop listening to that song
37. Its incredible!
38. “….still it wont let go……”
39. He’s usually a good cook
40. But I was worried when he said he was waiting for the Hamburger Helper to “thicken”
41. He eventually gave up on said ‘Thickening’
42. But dude Im from the southside of the C.H.I.
43. We don’t play that shit
44. It was still good
45. Even if I had to put it in a strainer
46. My 2 favorite heifers are probably teary eyed, laughing and reading this now
47. I wanna write more well rounded lists like Les
48. The Boondocks on TV every Sunday night!!!
49. Somebody please go buy Little Brother’s album “The Minstrel Show”50. It’s only the best HIPHOP record in YEARS!!!!
Kids have THE BEST view point! So untainted. Very simplistic. As you live and grow older you experience more so you cant help the taint so much. But the simplistic part you can do something about. I've been told that the child in me is still there and still evident. I love to hear that. Check this out....A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think....."When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca- age 8----------------------------------------------------------------"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4----------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5----------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your french fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6----------------------------------------------------------------"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4----------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7----------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss." Emily - age 8----------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7----------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5----------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7----------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4----------------------------------------------------------------"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." Karen - age 7----------------------------------------------------------------"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6----------------------------------------------------------------"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget." Jessica - age 8
1. "everything I do is judged/and they mostly get it wrong/but oh well!/'cuz the bathroom mirror has not budged/ and the (man) who lives there can tell the truth from the stuff they say/and he looks me in the eye/ and says 'would you prefer the easy way?/ no? well okay then/ dont cry!" - Ani Difranco 2. I fucking L O V E that!!!!
3. Oooh and……
4. "Accept me as I am, with this tendency that I have of being able to love everyone, including you, or just dont fucking bother me at all" - Alice Walker
5. Sons ‘o bitches!
6. I am hip to the hip talk ya know?
7. Dee Dee? “Nameliar”? When’s the rescheduled match?
8. Notice the quotations?
9. We know what your REAL NAME is! LOL.
10. She’s a Leo
11. …and no it wouldn’t be a such a fatality
12. My brother did the dishes w/o me asking!
13. Dude he NEVER EVER…EVER EVER…EVER EVER does the dishes
14. I cant believe I blew $40 at that bar
15. Especially since I was only planning to spend $20
16. Teej the Concierge!
17. Nice ring to it, huh?
18. I love having a reason to fish thru my 1200 or so CD’s
19. Sad thing is I will never have enough CD’s
20. “Fuck the world / don’t ask me for shit!”
21. U ever felt like that?
22. Lord knows I do…..frequently!
23. Cant wait to see the Vegas pics
24. I mean really…who’s validation do I need about me other than my own?
25. Jay Z aint fooling nobody…he WILL make another album
26. So shall you ask….so shall you receive my dear
27. “Open up a windooooooooooooooow”
28. Anyone know what song that is from?
29. We were totally shocked about how she flipped on us
30. “These muthafuckas think Im playin/you think I’m sayin this shit/cuz Im thinking it/just to be sayin it?”
32. Has this nigga been in my applesauce yo?
33. Fuck no we don’t play that shit!
34. I guess we are gonna have to set some rules ‘round this bitch!
35. Shopper Shmopper!
36. Their B-Girl stances were cute!
37. I don’t need the difficulty people!
38. Just cooperate with me and it shall turn out fine
39. Prior preparation prevents piss poor performance
40. It’s hilarious how bad of lip-sync-er Monica was in her first few videos
41. There are 2 rules to life…..
1. Never sweat the small stuff
2. EVERYTHING is small stuff
42. Sending out good energy and well wishes to her on her trip
43. The Bears kicked ass…..finally!
44. I can listen to Goapele’s “Closer” about a million times in a row
45. Naming these lists is getting a bit tiring
46. “Get down girl go ‘head get down!”
47. He laughed b/c I don’t have any measuring cups
48. And I make my Kool-Aid like Sharane’s little brother in House Party
49. I don’t need no measuring cups nigga!
50. My shit be fi’yah anyways!
Well.....thankfully my specific request for a woman massage therapist was granted. It was a lady named Kristyn I think. So I was a bit nervous b/c this was my first professional massage. Before I even left my crib I had to "prepare" so to speak. I uhh.....'self-loved' twice before I left. I wanted to make sure that certain things didnt pop up ya know. Its been a minute since I dun got physical like Olivia Newton John so I t
hought it was a good idea before I have some woman's hands all over me. Also I called the hotel and spoke with my co-worker. She's cool as shit. I more or less in a roundabout way asked if I should wear some drawers or not. The Teej has become somewhat of a freebird in that respect so it did cross my mind as to how that would play into it. (Is this blog a bit extra? LOL)So I get there...and thankfully I had met the lady the day before when she came to set up so there was a little bit of comfort there. But just a bit. I helped her carry the massage table to the room. We did it in one of the guest rooms that we are using as a showroom. So I left out to let her set up, and came back in in like 5 minutes. The curtains were drawn, some typa earthy chant shit was playing and candles were lit! SHIT YEAH I could get into this. I still wasnt sure about the drawers thing so I just asked. Should I keep them on or not? She told me that it was my choice, but that most people took theirs off. *insert suspicious look here* I kept my shit on!She went into the bathroom to wash her hands. I got undressed down to my underwear and got on the table and under the little cover. I was told to lay face down. The table had one of those face holding thingys. My face barely fit in that mug, plus a little bit later on when I got real relaxed I almost slobbed, but I caught myself. LOL. When she came out she broke it down that she'd work my feet for 15 minutes and the rest for 35 minutes. MAN is that what a good foot massage feels like? I usta hook up KK's feet and she loved it. Now I know why! I mean goddamn that sh
it was euphoria I tell you!So about 10 minutes into my shit...WHY DID THE COMPTROLLER OF THE HOTEL HAVE TO COME IN THE ROOM TO CHECK THE PHONES?....ok sidenote : the phone system in the hotel has been acting funny the last couple weeks. Saying people arent registered when they are and so forth. But what I dont understand is why did they have to come check the phone in a room that we arent gonna sell for 2 months? It's 2 in the afternoon yo! There are other rooms that are vacant!....the fuck is going on here! Do you realize that I am in my drawers under this cover? So while the co-worker/comptroller lady is in the room Kristyn is steady doing her shit. She done finished my feet and moved on to my legs. So my big ass naked thighleg is hanging out the cover and whatnot. Grrrrr! So after the 20 minutes I guess they figured out whatever they wanted to with phones. I still think that shit was hella unneccesary. So Im trying to relax and get back into it b/c my shit has been totally thrown off. So Im easing back into my comfort....relaxing...relaxing....AND THEN.......THE FUCKING MINI-BAR GUY COMES IN?!?!!?!?!?! Again mind you...this room is our showroom people. Bitch, you dont have to restock the mini-bar....Aint been nobody in this mutha'fucka in a month!...the fuck are you doing?!?!?! Are yall fucking serious with this shit? Is someone plotting against me? I mean really! Even the massage lady was like 'what's going on around here?'And so....the last 12 minutes of my massage went by undisturbed. I really wanted a do-over man. I think that shit was unfair.
The first day of school our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn't already know. I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder. I turned around to find a wrinkled little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that lit up her entire being. She said "Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I'm 87 years old. Can I give you a hug?". I laughed and enthusiastically responded, "Of course you may!" and she gave me a giant squeeze. "Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?" I asked. She jokingly replied, "I'm here to meet a rich husband, get married, and have a couple of kids...""No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age. "I always dreamed of having a college education and now I'm getting one!" she told me. After class we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this "time machine" as she shared her wisdom and experience with me. Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up. At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet. I'll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her 3x5 cards on the floor. Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone and simply said, "I'm sorry I'm so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I'll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know." As we laughed she cleared her throat and began, "We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing. There are only 4 secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success. You have to laugh and find humor every day. You've got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die. We have so many people walking around who are dead and don't even know it! There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up. If you are 19 years old and lie in bed for one full year and don't do one productive thing, you will turn 20 years old. If I am 87 years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn 88. Anybody can grow older. That doesn't take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding opportunity in change. Have no regrets. The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets." She concluded her speech by courageously singing "The Rose." She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily lives.At the year's end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago. One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep. Over 2000 college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it's never too late to be all you can possibly be. REMEMBER....GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY. GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL. We make a living by what we get. We make a life by what we give.
My name is TJ Armour. And Im addicted to candy. In particular Dots and Sour Patch Kids. And while my addiction hasnt reached "offering my oral services for next to nothing" proportions just yet....it is pretty bad. I shutter (yeah I said shutter!) at the thought of how much I've spent on these 2 habits just this year alone. 
At times I feel like I need one or the other or even BOTH to get me thru the day. It just doesnt make sense. The scary part is I havent even hit rock bottom yet. Just as sure as I typed this confession, I'll go get some soon. Pray for me. Even more so...pray for my teeth!
I dunno what I was on when I wrote the previous post...but Im off it now! What can I say? I have never ever denied being the moody scorpio that I am. Every so often I fall into melancholy mode, but it's usually short-lived.In other news.....I dunno about this keeping my fingernails crap. These shits are too long. Im really not trying to have to buy a nail file and be up in the crib filing my nails man. I'd rather just bite these shits (like I had been for umpteen years now) and keep them regulated and nice and low like I like them. This is starting to be ridiculous. I mean really...I be using them to press buttons on my phone and shit. Not a good look.Speaking of a good look though.....I'm all set to switch over to the Conciegre position at the hotel. While Im happy to be taking up this new position and looking forward to the exciting challenge of it....Im REALLY looking forward to some of the perks that come with the position too. Restaurants kissing up and bending over backwards for me to refer guest to them, getting passes to night spots and the whole 9. (I know I sound like Im in it for all the wrong reasons, right?) I mean even today I come in to work and my manager tells me "We're switching the massage company that we refer guests to. You HAVE to get a massage this week!" Well damn Gina! If you say I HAVE to. Im willing to sacrifice and be a guinea pig if it means a free hour long massage in the name of customer service. I just betta not get some big muscular french dude named Hanz or no shit. And please know that I told my manager that. Im not trying to have no massage by no dudes. Im far from homo-phobic, but this is a real strong personal preference, feel me? I'll be sure to blog about that on the for-really real.
"So much on my mind / I just cant recline / blasting holes in the night / til she bled sunshine..."*As the title suggests Im feeling a bit melancholy. Definitely happens from time to time. No worries I shall bounce back.*I cant watch no more TV or read any more articles dealing with Katrina coverage. The actual hurricane was what?...2 weeks ago? But the aftermath and whatnot will be felt for awhile to come. It's just damn sad to see the pictures and hear the stories anymore. But it's still reality. It must be dealt with. Im waiting til I get paid on the 20th to figure out what kinda donation I can make. I need to figure out what more I can do. Maybe I can give some clothes away. Or go buy can goods too. I need to do something in addition to the praying.*A week into my brother staying at my place. No problems there. When I lived at home he never did wash dishes so I didnt expect that. I just cant bask in all my naked glory like I would normally. Self love has been restricted to the shower only. Ooooh I dont like when I unsuspectedly walk in the bathroom maybe 10 minutes or so after he done blew it up and have to deal with the stench of someone else's shit! I done went thru damn near a whole pack of inscents b/c of him. But again.....I lived with this dude for damn near 1/4 century so it's not at all unfamiliar. I just have to remember to remember it all.....* Would yall believe I think I may be feeling a tad bit of pressure as far as writing in my own damn blog? Over say....the last 2 months or so I've gotten crazy compliments from peeps who've come across this here blog o' mine. Compliments coming left and right. People suggesting I submit this and that to a literary agents and publishers. Talk about pressure! Somedays as I write in it I wonder what peoples reaction will be. Will they dig it? Somedays I dont even write b/c Im afraid what I have an impluse to write about may not be substantial enough. I have to bring myself back to reality. IT'S MY SHIT!!!! I originally started writing for me. Lord knows I love all my blog buddies to death and I appreciate the comments......but I kinda have to get back to square one, ya know? Listen to me go off of the deep end here. LOL. Pardon me for a sec...I need to conference with myself. This'll only take a sec.....'Boy if you dont hush up with all that jibba jabba and just do what you been doing..which is write what you feel. Fuck all the extra shit!'. Fin.
1. “Wait a minute this is too deep….I gotta change the station…”
2. If she don’t stop referring to me as ‘sir’…..LOL
3. And no she didn’t encourage me to download
4. Im telling the RIAA on her
5. Frosted Cheerios is what’s really hood!
6. Dee Dee recognized a quote that I didnt
7. Reese throws one out that I cant figure
8. …..the fuck is that about?
9. It’s b/c I haven’t been feeling well these last few days
10. Seems all this ripping and running is catching up to me!
11. Nigga sit your ass down for a second!
12. ‘Pac said “Get off your ass if you wanna be rich”
13. I’ll rest when Im dead
14. That’ll be soon if you don’t chill
15. Okay okay! I get it.
16. “Cause how could you give your love to someone else / And share your dreams with me / Sometimes the very thing you're looking for / Is the one thing you can't see”
17. Am I being saved for last b/c Im the best?
18. Been drinking a lot of water
19. My pee is damn near clear lately
20. “It mosturizes my situation and preserves my sexy” – Puffy on Proactiv acne solution
21. ROFLMAO
22. She said she’s trying to be my friend
23. But that I’m making it hard b/c Im ‘stuck’
24. Aint that about a……..
25. Grrrrrrrrr!
26. The Bears will inevitably suck this year……again!
27. Kanye sold approx. 860,000 his first week
28. That’s major folks!
29. Im thinking pancakes @ IHOP
30. Anyone wanna join me?
31. Working on this website is getting on my nerves
32. “Lady don’t you hang up on me! I got redial!!! I got redial!!!!”
33. I know her better than she thinks I do
34. Patience Teej!
35. “Hello ad agencies. This is us. This is what we do. Can we have some money please?”
36. That folder is soooo thick with shit to do
37. Yet I still find the time to procrastinate
38. Being sick sucks ass…with a straw….with a hole in it!
39. LMAO @ her for that!
40. I’d appreciate it if you kept your cyber-germs to yourself anyways
41. Why am I using my nails to press buttons and shit?
42. “Don’t wake me / Im dreaming!”
43. Dude is he really dead?
44. I really don’t wanna be involved in their drama
45. But dammit if I aint in the middle
46. Am I listing too much?
47. Do people come across this and get scared b/c its so long?
48. 2 lists per week from now on!
49. What did the 5 fingers say to the face? SLAP!50. Im praying extra hard for him
"What I’m hearing which is sort of scary, is they all want to stay in Texas. Everyone is so overwhelmed by the hospitality. And so many of the people in the arena here, you know, were underprivileged anyway, so this--this (she chuckles slightly) is working very well for them." - Barbara BushWell of course she can fix her mouth to say some ignorant shit like this. She's only 658 yrs old! She doesnt know any better.
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