Im feeling sooooo fucking needy and dependent and affection starved and of course the ONLY person in the world who can relieve me of these feelings is totally not feeling me. I swear if I were a cryer, I'd be crying my eyes out. I wouldnt mind that either b/c at least I'd be able to release these mucky ass feelings that I have inside. Instead I just try to make it through the damn days and try to find shit to keep my mind of off her. But that's like if someone tells you not to think of grapefruit....you cant help but think of grapefruit! I keep telling myself not to think about her.....but of course she's all I can think of. Maybe I should just jump off a building and get this torture over with.....shit!
5 years ago