Many Thanks To The Mystery Man!

So KK and I had another one of our knockdown dragout arguement/discussion thingys today, right? So we go back and forth presenting our various points and issues. We discuss alot of things like the need for space, and how to salvage our relationship, and so forth. We end the conversation on a somewhat monotone note. Meaning we basically agreed that we both just need time. Not so much time away...just time. Like shit wont get better in the next day or two, dig it. We end the convo in not a bad way....just wasnt a good way. So anyways......

KK goes to a halloween party. Im at work at the hotel and damn near outta nowhere the child calls me at work like 'gimme ur social and ur last 3 addresses.....im finna pull ur credit!"....WTF! U finna do what? It's 1 in the morning!!!!! Who comes in from a party and decides to pull their sig. other's credit???? So apparently at the party she had a deep discussion with some mystery man who convinced her that all this time when I've been telling her that I do infact love her, despite the stupid shit I've done..that I was telling the truth! Well thank you Mystery Man for doing in 2 hours what I couldnt do in about a year! No seriously....thank you! Hopefully she listens to the both us now. LOL.......

KK.....u shoulda put Mystery Man down as my childhood hero cuz I love that nigga straight up and down.....whoever he is!

Anyone sensing a theme here? LOL

Thinkin' short of what you got
Better get it while it's hot
Ain't no better love than your own
Unmistakin' urge 2 be
sexin' with society
How can you be happy alone

[Bridge:]When I need 2 feel love
Why wait 4 so long
Cause I ain't 2 proud 2 beg 4 something that I call my own
And I want 2 be touched
And feeling so much see
cause Everybody needs some good lovin

'[Chorus:]
Yo if I need it in the morning
or the middle of the night
I ain't 2 proud 2 beg (no)
If the lovin' is strong then (s)he got it goin' on and
I ain't 2 proud 2 beg (no)
2 inches or a yard
rock hard or if it's saggin'
I ain't 2 proud 2 beg (no)
So it ain't like I'm braggin'
just join the paddywagon
causeI ain't 2 proud 2 beg
I ain't 2 proud 2 beg

Screaming' loud and holdin' sheets
Scared that you'll be called a freak
Gotta let it go while you can
Ain't 2 proud 2 beg you see
Cause my (wo)man belongs 2 me
And I know that (s)he understands

[Bridge]
[Chorus]
Yo Left Eye kick that rap
Realize the realism of reality
treats Us both the same
Cause satisfaction is the name of this game
So I choose to explain it's evident
Left Eye don't mean the rest of my body is irrelevant
In outher words let's refresh your head
About pullin' down curtains
and breakin' da waterbed
Yeah I like it when you (kiss)Both sets of lips
Oooh on the TLC tip

I ain't 2 proud 2 beg
(I ain't 2 proud 2 beg)
What I call my own
Just you and me (uh)
Heyyyyyyy
[Bridge]
[Chorus]

And Even More Erykah....

I want somebody to walk up behind me
And kiss me on my neck
and breathe on my neck

Been such a long time
I forgot that I was fine
Just kiss me on my neck
and breathe on my neck

* Okay...actually not just 'somebody'. I want a particular 'onebody' to do. Will ya do it? Huh? Will ya? Will ya?

BET/Eminem/Michael Jackson

Am I a traitor b/c I dont think the Eminem video "Just Lose It" is that bad. Like I know that Mike is going through his trials and all....but geez have a sense of humor will ya?

U gotta admit the bit about about Michael on the floor looking for his nose amongst a room full of people after accidentally knocking it off is hilarious! Well at least to me.

I mean to me the only objectionable part of the video/song is where Em says "....I done touched on everything but little boys/ And that's not a stab at Michael/ I'm just psycho..." Now when I heard that I was like "Now how now Mr. Mathers. Watch yourself buddy. You're pushing it!" But isnt that one of the reasons we like Em. Cause he pushes the envelope? I think he gets more flack than most cause he's a white guy doing a mostly black artform. But the fucker is G O O D!

Anyways...thats my 2 cents. I thought it was BIG that BET pulled the video. I was like "Whoa! Mike has juice like that?!?!" Fuck you Jimmy Iovine! Fuck you Interscope Records! Fuck you Universal Music Group Distribution! Im Michael Mu'fucking Jackson....and I can get your shit pulled bitch! LOL!

I've gone mad!

No seriously I've gone completely mad. Like last week sometime I dreamt that I decapitated 2 people including one dude that I know from school. I did it with with a rambo knife. I dont know why I did it, or if I had motive to do it. I just did it. Walked up to the people and in one swing clipped their heads clean the fuck off. LOL. Crazy, right?

Do you think these means I have pent up aggression to left off? Cause who the fuck dreams that shit? I dont feel hostile or anything. I'm clueless as to why I would dream such a dream.

This Is Some Bullshit!

I currently (at 6:28am) after drinking a single can of pepsi-cola pepsi, have just contracted the worst case of hiccups I have ever had, and quite possibly ever witnessed in my life! It's like my WHOLE upper body is having a seizure or some shit! I know I look like I have a severe case of tourette's or something. This is bloody murder. How does one shake the hiccups again? Im about to get off of work in a 1/2 hour! Who the hell can go to sleep with hiccups like this while their body is doing sommersaults from the neck down? I reiterate...This is some BULLSHIT!

In Short

* KK hates me, but loves me to pieces at the same time. Boy isnt love nice!

*New York was W A C K! Not the city itself, but my experience in it this particular go 'round was dreadful.

* The show is doing great. Growing by leaps and bounds.

*And that's about it b/c I dont feel like blogging a whole lot right now. Ha!

A Possible Tattoo?

"because everything i do is judged and they mostly get it wrong...but oh well" - Ani DeFranco

I say GODDAMN if that aint the story of my life. Shit!

No No! / It Aint Over Til It's Over

And what exactly do you suppose you are gonna do with a dagger? Kill yourself? Kill me? I'd rather you did neither. Gimme dat fo' you hurt somebody.

It Aint Over Til It's Over
by Lenny Kravitz

Here we are still together
We are one
So much time wasted
Playing games with love

So many tears I’ve cried
So much pain iside
But baby it ain’t over ’til it’s over
So many years we’ve tried
To keep our love alive
But baby it ain’t over ’til it’s over

How many times
Did we give up
But we always worked things out
And all my doubts and fear
Kept me wondering
If I’d always be in love

So many tears I’ve cried
So much pain iside
But baby it ain’t over ’til it’s over
So many years we’ve tried
And kept our love alive
’cause baby it ain’t over ’til it’s over

So many tears I’ve cried
So much pain inside
Baby it ain’t over ’til it’s over
So many years we’ve tried
And kept our love alive’
cause baby it ain’t over ’til it’s over
(repeat)

Well Goddamn!

I am pretty fucking pathetic huh? LOL. Sheesh! Get a hold on ya self boy! Have some self respect why dont you?

Oh well....I suppose it's what I get for being a fool in love like I am. I dont really mind though....the fool in love part. Love is still all it's cracked up to be. U just gotta take the good and bad, dig it?

Sniff Sniff

Hey there Mr. Blog. Im lonely. And my baby is really busy (which happens from time to time when you do as many things as she does, and quite well I might add), and I miss her. Plus you know Im pretty sure she still doesnt like me, which doesnt help me feel better either. Oh well.....thanks for listening Mr. Blog.

Erykah's "Bag Lady"

Bag lady you gone hurt your back
Dragging all them bags like that
I guess nobody ever told you
All you must hold on to
Is you, is you, is you

One day all them bags gone get in your way
One day all them bags gone get in your way
I said one day all them bags gone get in your way
One Day all them bags gone get in your way

So pack light
Pack light
Pack light
Ooh ooh

Bag lady you gone miss your bus
You can't hurry up Cause you got too much stuff
When they see you comin
Niggas take off runnin
From you it's true oh yes they do

One day he gone say you crowdin my space
One day he gone say you crowdin my space
I said one day he gone say you crowdin my space
One day he gone say you crowdin my space

So pack light
Pack light
Pack light
Ooh ooh

Girl I know sometimes it's hard
And we can't let go
Oh when someone hurts you oh so bad inside
You can't deny it
you can't stop crying
If you start breathin
Then you won't believe it
You'll feel so much better(So much better baby)

Bag lady
Let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go
Ooh, ooh Girl you don't need it
I betcha love can make it better
Betcha love can make it better
Bag lady, hmmLet it go, let it go, let it go, let it go
Girl you don't need that, hmm

Lyrics / Feeling crazy

"Last year was a hard one / but life goes on /bumping my head against the wall/ learning right from wrong" - 2pac

"I got so much trouble on my mind / refuse to lose......." - Public Enemy


Yo I feel really crazy if you couldnt tell from my previous post. I need a sedative. Or some sex. Or some prayer or something. If ya coulda saw me yesterday standing out front this music industry annual awards show last night. Not like crazy drifter standing. We were taping for my show, but I was in a funny mood. Real downtrodden and shit. So while my partners were taping fo the show, I was just standing in the same spot for like an hour and half. Just numb. What the fuck is wrong with me. Even KK and another friend came up to me and asked if I was okay. I barely said two words. Im in a better mood than then, but still. I feel funny. I really think I have a slight case of mild depression. Crazy, right? The Teej depressed! Go figure!

Conversation WIth Myself

TJ : I think Im depressed.
Teej : Boy what the fuck is wrong with you?
TJ : Didnt you hear me? I think Im depressed.
Teej : About what fool?
TJ : Just shit on my mind....tired.
Teej : Tired of what? It's that girl isnt it!
TJ : Well.......
Teej : Uh huh. It's her.
TJ : No not really. Well actually thats a part of it.
Teej : Cant lie to me fool.
TJ : Things are just a lil foggy and I wish they werent. Im trying my best to be patient. But at the same time I wanna help remedy the situation. I dont wanna be idle about it b/c that wont help shit. You know what? I dont wanna talk about this no more.
Teej : Well fuck you then....go on with ya depressed ass. Go jump offa building or some shit! With ya punk ass......ol sucka for love ass nigga!

Stupid Guests

The following is just a couple of random conversations 'tween I and some of our stupid, spoiled geust at the hotel.....

Conversation 1

Phone rings.
Me : Guest Services. This is Anthony. How may I help you?
Guest : The hotel has an ATM inside, right?
Me: Unfortunately we dont sir.
Guest : So the hotel does'nt have an ATM inside?
Me (Thinking) : Aint that what the fuck I just said Genius!
Me : No sir.
Guest : So where is the closest ATM?
Me : There's one at the very end of the block.
Guest : At the end of the block? So where is it?
Me (Thinking) : Look you fucker! I am not in the best of moods. Bring your happy ass downstairs and I MIGHT think about pointing you in the right direction.
Me : You would make a left out of the front door and it will be at the very end of the block.
Guest : Okay thanks.
Me : Uh huh

Conversation 2

These guest are just leaving the restaurant inside the hotel. It's like 11pm, and they dont see a doorman outside so they decide to come to me while Im behind the front desk....

Guest : Excuse me. Can we get a cab?
Me (Thinking) : Sure if you take your ass outside. What the fuck do you want me to do from behind this desk?
Me : Sure hold on. Paul! Can you get a cab for these guests.

Yeah I know that one was short but the point is....Im not in a good mood right now. And I fucking hate it when people ask me about getting a cab while Im behind the front desk. Like cant you take your uppity well to do ass outside and flag down a cab? And shit to be honest with you. Im a young 6 foot 5 inch black man! Your ass would do better at getting a cab before me anyways...

If I didnt know any better.....

....I'd swear the child is getting some sorta sadistic pleasure outta this whole thing. Like on one hand....I feel like Im being justifiably punished for being a bad boyfriend. When you fuck up, there are consequences. Period. So this is my shit coming back for putting her through the wringer. And if thats the case, then I can deal. I'll take my punishment like a man and move on. That's how I feel on one hand. The other though....WHEW! I swear she's getting off to the thought of me suffering! Not like life or death suffering mind you. But you know like knowing I really really enjoy some shit and being the only person that can give it to me, and then denying me out of a twinge of spite. My perception aint all the way off. I see through you missy! Cant break down the Teej! Im T to the mu'fuckin yo!

And the thing is....I've been celibant before. I once did a self imposed nearly 2 year stint in no nana land. So I know I can do it. That shit was like 4 or 5 years ago though. And I didnt have a steady girl. Shit's different now! We've been somewhat consistent in our body-bumping up until now. And now it's just.....off! Cold turkey! Wack yo! Wack I tell you, but I digress......

Some Random Shit

Bush is an moron. I saw something on the internet...a sign somewhere that said "Somewhere in Texas, there is a village missing their idiot!" How real is that. I didnt see all of the first debate, but I saw enough. The more that fool talks, the more Im trying to figure how he'll get ANY votes. Who knowingly votes for someone that dumb? Well shit maybe he aint that dumb....the fucker figured out how to steal a fucking election and get away with it. So I say all that to say Buck Fush! Get out and do your part to removve this clown, will ya?

Also on some totally random shit....when Im at work on the overnight...I google people I know. It's actually kinda fun. Hell I google myself!

The other night I semi-drunkingly left my ATM card in the machine at 2am, the next day I went to inquire as to how to get it back...you know the lady told me that the machine probably shredded my shit! She made me fill out a form to get another card sent to me within 7-14 business days. What kinda fucking timeframe is that? Why dont you just say 1-2 weeks? I can count you know. Plus I dont think the machine shredded shit! I think she never had to deal with that particular problem before and didnt know what else to tell me. Why the fuck would the ATM machine have a built in shredder? I might be a lil slow sometimes but I aint dumb yo!

And lastly.....I just ate a bagel w/ cream cheese and jelly. and about 20 tootsie rolls...all within a 10 minute timeframe. No real importance to that 'cept for the fact that it's my blog and I say what I want to. LOL. Alright Im done abusing the powers of free blog speech.

P.S. B U S T!!!!!!!.......ya heard me? I wasnt exaggerating with that one.

Withdrawl yawl

It's been about 6 weeks since me and the Mrs. have done the tango for 2, and I know there are other things I could be blogging about like the my new windows or the debates or any other worldly issue of importance, but goddammit I cant think straight. Self love aint cutting it! Even she's noticed Im a tad grumpier as of late. After I told her of how I kinda snapped on a co-worker you know what she said? "You're just sexually frustrated!" The nerve! LOL. She's torturing me it seems! I'm dying over here....sheesh! My sensual, sexual scorpio cant take all this pressure that is building within. I say I need to release this the organic way! I'm bout ready to B U S T !!!